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Feeling stagnant at work lately especially when people around me has left this world.
It hits harder when I’ve built a 2 yr r/s with the patients I’m working with. Which one’s tougher: to leave within a few days when you know your lungs are not functioning or months to a year if you know you have cancer? Or would it be living long enough (>100) that you can tell others that you have enough of life?
It depends. Living a life without regrets and things unresolved would make things easier. Treasuring your love ones around you and loving them. No one knows when the exact moment will come unless you decided to end it prematurely.
Read a saying that I like
” Yesterday’s history and tommorow’s a mystery. Embrace today as today is a gift. That’s why it’s called the present”

Been so tired for the past month that I’ve steered clear from the net except reading emails. Wonder what I’m tired of… feel really sleepy on weekdays after arriving everynite after 8 or 9 and juz want to slack on Sundays after housework….

prob.. been using my brain juice alot lately whether in work or church…

now I realize I’m in the shoes why the temp for YA to be so involve in the world n not the church… the excitement of being involve in something that would change the organization

Juz got involve in the new centre planning that our grandpa as someone described has got funds. So… got this wish list. one of the dept head who is gd at getting pple excited… ask me dun I want to stay longer to see the opening? Well… of course but I wonder where I’ll be in 5 yrs time… could be overseas studying or in another line that I always wanted to do….. I can still come and see it.

Just have to wait and see whether this is juz a dream list that is being use as a reference as act. there’s already a plan …. that’s the usual case here

how do we maintain the same excitement for the faith we have? It’s really not easy as the world offers things u can see that u accomplishes. That’s why the daily connection is important whether in reading, thoughts, music, nature…etc

immersing in that quiet valley with Him… was listening to the song yesterday and it describes well

Yeh…Tommorow I’m celebrating 8 years of marriage with Chai Hee. Then, it’ll be our 12 years of get together in a week’s time.

Now I understood what my piano teacher shared with me many years ago about her missing her husband sometimes during the day even with 2 children and married for more than 10 years.

It’s amazing that it really happens.To share a close bond with someone who shares every part of my life: my belief, my work, my ministry, my prayers, my pain, my laughters etc… etc..

Our marriage is not perfect but I still savour the experiences that we grew together. Sometimes we are like kids, still having pillow fights and wrestles or tantrums. I’m glad that we were able to ride over the storms of our lives together with God’s hands. From overcoming obstacles for his study of ministry, to months of feeling trapped in a small living cubicle/dorm doing nothing much but wait, to adjustment in the many church assignments.

I look forward to years ahead with my soul mate and still stand fast to the wedding song lyrics I wrote for us.

Just had an MSN chat with Sean and he suggested I should expand on my thoughts. So I’ll quote from his blog from his beautiful summary of what our discussion that developed from my earlier post.

Love is a commitment. It is also a choice to stay committed to a person and not even thinking about getting together with someone else. After all, the grass might not really be greener on the other side.
Even though it’s frustrating and painful at times, it’s the level of openness the couple has to discuss things with each other to explore on how to improve on the relationship. Ultimately each person would love to marry someone who is in tune with each other’s likes and dislikes, and knowing exactly which buttons to push to make each other happy. Growing a relationship needs time to nurture and much effort. Time, because every learning process takes time. Effort, because to not take each other for granted, to see the other in a fresh perspective everyday, to remind yourself of the good points of your partner even though the bad points seem so glaring.

Most importantly, the key to a loving relationship is having a good spiritual life and an ever open heart towards each other.

Plus… when I wrote "not just", it is not the negative sense. It means that it encompasses "more than", "not only that". E.g. Love is commitment that is "more than"/"goes beyond" excitement.

So a paraphrase of what I wrote:

Love is really a commitment that goes beyond excitement, a decision that is more than just passion, a covenant set in God’s presence before the fall that encompasses more than a twosome fulfillment.

It needs cultivation and nurturing so that it will blossom and bear fruit. Through the wings of storms, love grows stronger and firmer.

Time of Mid-Autumn Festival has history of matchmaking/meet your partner and therefore a popular month for Chinese weddings.

Wow, I’ve been married for 8 years with this festival around the corner…Getting old…We’ve been together for 12 years….

Love is really a commitment not just excitement, a decision not just passion, a covenant set in God’s presence before the fall not just a twosome fulfillment.

It needs cultivation and nurturing so that it will blossom and bear fruit. Through the wings of storms, love grows stronger and firmer.

May couples out there find happiness and be blessed in your relationship.

Yeh! Finally have a date for Youth Camp "To tell or not to Tell" reunion on 18 August.

Venue at Thomson from 6 pm

Leaders asking the "Pharos" for encore of the "act"

and groups cheers.

Hope that most can attend and those who were not able to make it for camp to gather and watch video, photos with dinner

Feels kind of funny after the episode on Sunday. Been asked to play wedding music for a couple whom I don’t know. Actually, none of the youths who helped out knows them. Well, I think Jurong should offer different wedding packages then have the extra money contributed for church upgrading purposes

Well, as Peter said we help what we can for this couple. Simple wedding, just simple procession with lunch reception arranged within 2 weeks. Wow…. imagine a Singaporean Wedding like this….

Probably we, spoiled kiasu Singaporeans want everything perfect, so we start planning a year ahead.

Main impt thing is the life ahead with the person we choose to spend the rest of our lives. One who share our beliefs and goals in life.

It’s one big day of a couple that we’ve been waiting for. Seeing them from attraction to getting together and finally setting up their own family. Nothing beats joy of seeing 2 friends from church united in the love of Christ.

I found suddenly that our church aunties can cater and present a tea reception more elaborate yet economical than catering services. Looking at the borrowed glasswares and the decor yesterday. I just wowed! Can’t wait to see the delicious veg. food that outside can’t buy, prepared by church ladies.

Well, sometimes it’s all these events that bring people working together. Reminiscing my own wedding in Thomson when we had alot of friends helping us and one even when he’s on crutches. The sad thing is some of them are no longer in church. The greatest challenge when one reach young adult age = graduated, single and working. The society will suck almost every ounce of your energy if you allow them. Wanting to achieve and contribute in the career path. If there’s nothing except religion, it will not keep them as church becomes just a part of their lives, not Christ in their lives.

That’s why it’s always a rejoicing time when 2 church young adults find each other in church and still continue to serve, continue their dedication in the Lord.

I’m looking forward to see 2 couples in Sydney, friendships that we’ve kept over the years and the rest too. It would be a great reunion to see all in the home that we’ve hoped for.

Yeh! Camp has completed and I’m glad the youths enjoyed the camp. Someone suggested for a reunion in July which has been in our minds but just wanted to see how things went in the camp. Wonder whether it’s too much for everyone as there’s prayer meeting for evangelism this Sat 3 pm at SDACC, Combined Sports day on 1 July Sunday at Thomson, Golden Angels Youth evangelism from 4-6 July (Wed-Fri) at Thomson.

Hmm… not much dates left… will it be 14 July sat night(it’s Gary+Shuqin’s Wedding the next day) or 21 July sat night (it’s JCC evangelism finishing in the afternoon) or 28 July Sat night??

We shall seeeeeeeeeeeee   :)

Whew, Malaria bloodtest results are out and it is negative. Chai Hee is getting better, now he can eat some food and retained it. He’s still having slight headache and giddiness. The fragility of human life.

Think I better go home earlier today. My mind not at work though it’s piling up again after holidays.